We all had one event that changed our lives,
when we look back sometimes we've got mixed feelings.
That phase birthed a process in US because that was the beginning of change in our lives.
What's next after the pain? it's a question most of us ask ourselves. what happens when the refining and pruning process is ongoing? What results am I expected to get?
What challenges would I encounter?
How will people perceive the changed me?
Will I still be me? Who really am I?
After publishing my story last year on my birthday,
I felt relieved because having to tell my parents physically wasn't something I could handle.
Well, people got to know the part of the story I was willing to tell.
So what happened after you told your story Ebun?
Well they say time heals pain yeah!
Lets just say there is a price for the next level.
Hmmm!
Maybe someday I would share that story, *smiles*.
Just as I am writing this, I have got tears in my eyes.
After sharing my story I moved to another phase of my life and it felt like hell.
I wasn't emotionally balanced,
I wasn't comfortable where I was....
In summary I became a stranger in my own city.
That season of my life was very different.
That was the season where I 'received brain!'
The question was simple, 'why are you running?'
I completely and totally trusted the leading and direction of the holy spirit.
It was tough and rough!
You don't want to be caught up in someone else's shadow.
There comes a season where it feels like nothing is working
And it seems like hell just broke loose over you,
Disappointment everywhere,
Finances down,
When you find out your beloved is probably not your beloved,
Forgoing some people, so that you can move on.....
The separation part is more like the seemly impossible part,
But It is one of the most important phase of the process.
You need to also know that Life keeps bringing different test at different phases.
Even when everything seems to look like a mirage,
Your eyes are tired of crying, and your pillow is tired of catching the tears,
This is where the promise question pops up....
Is this what I was promised?
Sometimes you want to speak up but then you just hold back.
You don't want someone making mockery of your struggles.
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Hey!
Well, I wouldn't say I understand you but I might just feel almost the same way you are feeling right now.
This year dealt with me a lot,
Sometimes I get overwhelmed.
I have learnt this,
It's okay not be okay but never lose your JOY.
Never lose your FAITH.
Never lose your HOPE.
It's just a phase that will pass.
Our processes differ,
So never compare yourself to others.
The process will shape you.
This is not a perspire to aspire to expire kinda write up.
Let's say for some of us, God will have us document our processes.
I have realized that in this season the enemy is playing alot with people's minds and that's why you need people who will not just only play or gist with you.
You need people who can stand in the place of prayer for you.
And you also need to be accountable.
You need an accountability partner!
My dear, you are not alone.
Dont let the enemy steal your JOY
Renew your strength daily
You need it for the journey ahead
Let JOY be the vehicle that you take everywhere you go.
This is one of my favorite from the creators book..
Isaiah 40:31
''But they that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint.''
GOD IS NOT DONE WITH YOU!!!
I've got a surprise for you ,take it as a gift from me to you.
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