No one could have understood her unspoken thoughts.
She didn’t have them so people could understand.
She wouldn't talk
The fear of being judged by the ones she loves,
Neither does she want to be rejected
The blade doesn't clear the scar;
She wouldn’t talk
Her timidity influenced by the staring eyes of the society,
She still wasn’t a fit though numb
The silence doesn’t drown out the anomaly;
She became a stranger to herself
Lost in the oceans of life
A life full of pain, for her it is a norm;
She became a wanderer
A wanderer that never could leave her marks behind,
Her life wasn’t an easy one but it was the only thing she had;
Too many voices in her head
Trying hard to live up to the stand, but yet gets stamped on..
She screams for help but no one to cared
So she stopped
She stopped with the fear, with the rejection, with the scream
She let go,
She took in the noise;
Since being alive wasn't meaningful
Been dead doesn't make a difference either, she thought...
So she stood up, gathered all her courage and continued her journey
Journey to the forever land
She felt like a dead weight
A mass of bones, skin and blood but lifeless and sparkless
She didn’t matter; she was just filling a gap
That was how she saw her life; a void
So, she decided to create space for another
Come on soldier, you can do it ;She said to herself,
I am the master of my thoughts;
She thought to herself “Big girls don’t cry
Bang bang and a loud thud
No one would have heard; they were too busy
Her theory would then be accurate”
Who cares how l live my life, they are all busy
She promises herself to enjoy the best days of her life..
Wrapped up in her thoughts
Tears rolled down her cheeks
She looked herself in the mirror and said 'l am amazing'
Her tears encouraged her..
No more dark thoughts; hence no more dark days
The breaking of a new dawn is here for her
She braced herself and delighted in her story
No one could have understood her unspoken thoughts.
She didn’t have them so people could understand.
ANEAK!! Life! Hearts! Love!
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