My thoughts by ANEAKSPEAK

May be I was carried away by my lustful desires.

I just wanted to experience the outside world but I knew fully well I would crash. 

I miss talking with you.

 I am now a shadow of myself, a stranger that I  dont know.

How I wish I had stayed back with you but instead I allowed the whirlwind of desire blow me off focus. 

How come I  didn't notice how far I  had drifted away from your arms of love. 

I want to talk but I don't know what to say, I'm speechless. 

My mind is so occupied that I can hardly remember the good times we had together.

I want to know you. it's my fault I don't actually. 

I heard that you love me and have spoken a lot about me but I don't think about you much to say the least. 

When I think about it, you never left, I did.

I want to know your fears
I want to know your care
your hidden passion
your great obsessions
your greatest desires
what lights your fires
I want to know all of this
I know you've wanted this for so long
it's my fault our relationships dragged on
I think of you once in a while
I talk to you even scarcely that
I barely listen to you when you talk
it's like I'm never there at all

Now I know you never left
If I didn't know you its because I didn't care to bother if you had a good day or to wonder if you felt ok.
To ask how you were feeling ,to know what you were doing.

I read somewhere that intimacy isn't just in who you let touch you or who you got naked with.
It's who you let know your fears.
It's in giving your attention and it's in being there.
I want to know all about you Lord.
I don't want even space to divide us.
I want to know your word, your will ,your delight, your heart.
I want you to hold me tight
You know I say I love you but this time let me show it.